13 December, 2006

Well I've had a pretty busy week. Last Wednesday (Dec. 6) I turned 24 years old. Pretty cool. My brother for the 4th year in a row thought that my birthday was on the 7th, until his wife told him otherwise. Got calls from all the usual family, which is always nice. On Monday (Dec. 11) I officially ended my school life. That's right after 5 1/2 long years I am officially done with college. Why did it take me so long? I basically pissed away about two years wandering aimlessly from major to major and class to class with no real goal in mind. I finally settled with English Literature. So i can ready really well. Also I've pretty much decided I need a life change. I can't even remember the last time I rode for enjoyment or just in general. I've been doing a lot of thinking and soul-searching and I am in serious need of a life adjustment. I have gained some weight recently, and I absolutely hate myself for doing so. Some is muscle thanks to the program Kent gave me, but some is that other material that is horrible. Things must change now or next year is lost. I am going to Wisconsin at the end of the month for a week long vacation with my Dad, Stepmother, and siblings. Looking forward to getting away, just not necessarily being with my family. I know my brother will be critical of me not riding and gaining weight again, and they all will tell me I need to get a real job. I don't have the same goals and ambitions that my family wants me to have. I'm not completely driven by money. One thing is that I consider my job a real job because it's what I want to do in life, not necessarily sell bikes, but to be involved and give back to the sport that probably saved my life. However, the rest of the time I'm going to relax, unwind, and hopefully get rid of the headache I've had for about the past month. I guess I'll cut it off here because I could ramble forever, thanks to English.

Later On,


bryan said...

There's one key thing to remember in all of this, no matter how hard it is, and no matter what you hear: Gotta take care of No. 1 first. Your happiness is the most important thing, not your family's or anybody else's. You can take care of others when your own situation is squared away. After you're where you want to be, by all means -- please others. But don't change your goals, dreams or hopes to make it happen.

sydney_b said...

Yeah, your life is the only thing that is really your own. Re: $... well money won't make u happy but the lack of it will make u miserable. That being said, if the money u make doing what you're doing is able to support your lifestyle acceptably and you're ok with whatever trade-offs you need to make, I say keep it and enjoy it. I could go corporate and make lots more money than I do now, but I really like the people I work with, the schedule I get, and the perks of being on a university campus.

Work to live, not live to work.