17 October, 2007
So, the more I think about racing CX this weekend, the more it scares the crap out of me. What am I thinking? I haven't been training....much, I haven't raced since April, and I'm going way out of my element and doing something out of my comfort zone. I feel totally unprepared, and am having some serious doubts. It's become an obsession. I don't expect to do well at all. I really just want to finish, even if that is in last place. I know that if I can get some time, train and eat right that I'll be fine by the Lincoln weekend. Is there a way to actually prepare for something that you have never done before? I've been asking everyone I know lately for advice and tips, but this mental hurdle needs to be overcome. I'm battling my head, and that's the hardest enemy of all, no matter what. I feel like I'm being stupid and over thinking everything, like I'm prone to do. It's just me, and my way.
Posted by Matt N at 11:10 PM